I'm struggling tonight. After getting all the kids in bed I just started crying. I don't know how to do this. Three kids is a lot of work and without Dave it seems impossible. My family is so supportive but I hate relying on them for everything. I can't seem to get anything done. My house is a disaster. I've just about fallen off my diet. I feel like I don't know how to parent successfully and that I completely suck at it.
I feel so torn in so many directions. How much more of this can I take? How do people do this? There are plenty of moms with dads on the road or dads in the military. Why can't I do this? I just feel like such a failure. I don't want to fail my kids. Or my marriage for that matter.
I want to be a super mom and a super wife. Why can't life just be easy?
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- Amber
- I'm 29 years old and married to my wonderful husband Dave. We have 3 kiddos who brighten our lives. Eric is is 4 and Andrew is 2. Katelyn is our newest addition born at the beginning of November. Andrew is our miracle baby who was born with 3 congenital heart defects - Truncus Arteriosus, a VSD, and an Interrupted Aortic Arch. This blog is intended to help others follow Andrew's journey with CHD as well as our everyday life events.
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Hang in there Amber! I can't imagine it being easy to take care of three kids on your own, but you will find a way to make it work! :o)
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Ugh...no inspiring words from me because I'm right there with you. And Ryan's home now so what sense does that make?! It sucks having to rely on other people all the time but I believe that is how God helps us survive -otherwise I don't know how I would have made it this past year. One day at a time Amber!!! Love you :)
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